I was outside doing some yard work yesterday and I was thinking about snakes and bugs and, “What if the ants are bad this year, etc.” I realized I felt anxious even doing yard work. I was actually trying to enjoy the weather! I hate that I have grown even more anxious. I am not sure how to go about making myself less anxious.
I really wish I could find my calling, career, or whatever you would call it. I expected to have a career doing something I loved. I am disapointed that I don’t.
I didn’t have a great morning today. I had trouble sleeping and got really upset about my mamaw. I really want to make some big changes but fell I am stuck because I have bills to pay.
I’d love to have a break. But I wouldn’t want to come back to this life.